Is it possible to change? I asked myself. Is it possible to get sober again? Is it possible to experience peace and joy? Is it possible to feel absolutely free? Is it possible to experience fulfillment? Is the word "bliss" just an idea or something real?
bliss [blɪs]n. perfect happiness; serene joy
I do not ever remember experiencing perfect happiness. The closest thing to that might be when each of my children were born. I had a glimpse of it while swimming alone off the coast in Maui. Is it too much to ask for out of life? Is wanting to feel something good too much to ask for?
It doesn't seem too much to ask for. So how does one get to a place where bliss is the overall experience in the here and now and the day to day? Personally I am not so sure. History tells me that if I want a different outcome then do something different. Slow down and breathe.
Change is a choice. The Serenity prayer asks"God" to help the petitioner to accept what they can not change and give them courage to change the things that they can. I have spent the last month focusing and praying this almost every day. The vantage point from how I am interpreting things is changing. I am more able to see that I do have a choice and I can experience bliss.
I used to think it was weird that every morning I wake up as the same person. Wouldn't it be great to just wake up once as someone else? Wow, what a crazy thought that was. Today, I am glad to wake up as myself, no longer wishing I was someone else or somewhere else. Bliss is attainable.
So first step was to get sober (check). The next step make it happen. Looks like it's time to be courageous. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change and the courage to change the things I can.
Peace and Bliss
